Category Archives: Grief

There will never be another good-bye

It was five years ago today;  I walked alone to the entrance of Royal Victoria Hospital – on the sidewalk leading to you.  But you were not there… you were already walking beside me;  You were already holding my hand. … Continue reading

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She hugged him

I didn’t see it coming – my meltdown. The barbecue began innocently enough.  There were neighbours, family, friends.  Everyone was gathering for the feast.  I had established my “place” beside friends, hunkered down into my seat, and was ready to … Continue reading

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He held up a mirror on remission

I practically skipped into the doctor’s office yesterday.  Why wouldn’t I?  I felt great, I was getting help with my paper-work, and I am within spitting distance of my last chemo. Cindy, Dr. Kolesky’s administrative assistant, greeted me with a … Continue reading

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It takes more courage…

It takes more courage to listen to someone crying – than it does to cry. It takes more courage to support than it does to be supported. It takes more courage to love than to be loved. It takes more … Continue reading

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The most precious values

I was quite moved today, watching the funeral service for Corporal Nathan Cirillo.   This young man was gunned down last Wednesday while standing guard at the National War Memorial in Ottawa, Ontario. His death most certainly galvanized the Canadian … Continue reading

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I’d like something bright and colourful, please.

Auntie Helen will be laid to rest this Thursday and I need to order flowers. What would she want?  When my brother and I were trying to remember her favorite flower, we simply drew blanks.  She lived in Edmonton – … Continue reading

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I’m Very Positive…. that I am Uncertain

I am reacting differently to my hair loss than I thought I would.  Hair, after-all, has never really been of great concern to me.  I have never really worn make-up nor really concerned myself about my nails.  This, by the … Continue reading

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If You Give me Permission to Cry

If you give me permission to cry… – I can grieve the loss of my hair as it begins to fall out in spite of my best efforts to be “kind” to my hair.  It’s not so much that I … Continue reading

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