Category Archives: diary

It’s a do-nothing kind of day

“Maybe I should do laundry?” Nah — “Maybe I should make some soup?” Nah — “How about going for a walk?” Been there – did it – thank goodness – first thing this morning. “Why no energy?” I don’t know. … Continue reading

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Go back to bed!

The turkey bones simmer on the stove.  The promise of turkey soup tantalizes and awakens my taste-buds.  The smells are intoxicating.  They are exciting.  They evoke gustatory pleasures that almost make me feel guilty!  Yet, something within me speaks even … Continue reading

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Who am I?

I am not cancer. I am not a threat. I am not contagious, judgmental, or rude. I am not selfish. I am not cruel. I am not self-centered. I am neither fatalistic, nor pessimistic. I am not naive. What I … Continue reading

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One year today

It was one year ago – today (figuratively speaking) when my world was turned upside down.  I remember the blood rushing from my head, the feeling of nausea, and words spinning so frantically that nothing was audible.  Well, almost nothing. … Continue reading

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Oh, what a glorious morning

This coming Wednesday will be the non-official date when I received the full enchilada of my cancer diagnosis.  The “real” date was the 10th, but to me, it was the second week of school that counts more.  It is the … Continue reading

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If

If I were a bird of flight today I’d fly away – I’d soar Into the cloudy, rainy sky My wings I’d stretch out more Through the lofty Heavens climb Where nary man or beast Would dare to venture, lest … Continue reading

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I need to teach

I feel like a trapped animal today.  My colleagues are back at work, back contributing to society.  Here I am.  At home.  Sipping coffee.  It seems my living conditions are quite wonderful.  I have shelter, food, space, water. Yet – … Continue reading

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Creating a Legacy

It had been sitting on my desk for a while.  I was afraid to open it.  Who knew what information it may contain?  That envelope that was addressed to me – from the Canadian Cancer Society – could only bring … Continue reading

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The Window

I walk past his room and peek in.   It is empty.  There is very little evidence that Ben was even there – other than the bed sheets are not as straight as they ought to be and the odd … Continue reading

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I will always be with you

Mother’s Day No matter how old, no matter what circumstance, I still miss my Mom on Mother’s Day. My daughter wandered into my room yesterday morning to plan what we were going to do.  The boys had gone diving, so … Continue reading

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