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About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.

The Hours in My Life

How would you respond to the question,  “how are you”, if you were still alive three years longer than anyone had expected?  Wouldn’t you be inclined to say, “great!”?  Don’t you have an obligation to be great?  After all, you … Continue reading

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It Takes Courage To Cry

Oh, how I hate good-byes! The older I get, the worse they are. Recently, however, I’ve discovered a secret; If you ignore the event, it doesn’t hurt.  Yup.  You can just simply turn your back on it and pretend it … Continue reading

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Change

My father used to say, “the only thing you can count on to not change is change itself”. Of course I had no idea, as a young person, what that meant.  Youth is full of change.  Of course things change. … Continue reading

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More – Revisited

A memory from facebook popped up on my feed this morning.  It was a post I had written one year ago today and was entitled, “More“.  I read it.  I remembered how full of hope I was at the time, … Continue reading

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In Limbo

This time of year seems to bring on a lot of “hurry up and wait” feelings in me.  I am in limbo. Ben leaves for school Sunday.  I dread that day.  I am happy for him.  I will be fine. … Continue reading

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I Sure Did Learn My Lesson!

I had a dream this morning from which I begrudgingly awoke.  In fact, I’m not sure I woke up from it at all – it was one of those dreams that stay with you for a long time and actually … Continue reading

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Days like these…

Days like these feel like someone put up a brick wall between my brain and my eyes.  I see the day.  I feel the wind.  I smell the fresh air.  I can walk outside and feel the sand on the … Continue reading

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Safe Again

I like being home. I know it.   I am comfortable. To not be home – to not be in routine – is frightening. I’ve navigated the dangerous waters.  I’ve leaped the leap of faith.  I’ve climbed mountains. I don’t … Continue reading

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54

In one week from today, I’ll be 54.  I used to think that was ancient.  I used to think that was so far away.  More than a half century of living – how have I changed? I have more wrinkles, … Continue reading

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Ah, La Pluie!

The sudden purge of angry skies The sodden path of muck The sonorous beat upon the roof And I become unstuck A burst of lighting in the air An angry crack of words A turbulent ride of feelings fly The … Continue reading

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