The Grace of Another Year

I once believed I had no time
I was busy every day
The kids, the job, the house, my dog
Life got in the way

From early morn to late at night
I worked, I worked, I worked
No time to eat, no time to sleep
In the wings, my cancer lurked

I hunkered down and moved along
There was no way I could delay
A deadline here, a meeting there
And birthdays merely days away

There was no time for me to breathe
I was cloaked from head to toe
In obligations, bills, and chores
Life did reap what I could sow

But in the wings, my cancer lurked
I hadn’t seen the sign
It had been moving steadily along
To take what had been mine

My health, my spirit, and my time
The time I never knew
The cancer robbed all I had owned
But had changed my point of view

The time I thought I did not have
Was now staring back at me
The life I thought I would have lived
I had to set it free

I was raw.  I was naked.  I was afraid.
“Who am I now”, I thought?
What would I do? Who would I be?
Would I have another shot?

I stepped with time and kept its beat
I moved together with its stride
And danced life’s dance on broken glass
And swallowed all my pride

Would I survive what was to come?
Would I be given a cure?
What would the treatment make of me?
Time held a new allure

Day by day and week by week
My strength it did return
I was not the same as I once was
But no longer did I yearn

For the life I had or had not seen
For the hectic pace I kept
The grace I’ve seen with clearer eyes
With gratitude I’ve wept

I’ve stood upon my own two feet
And raised my hands up high
I lift my voice to roar aloud
Upon it I can fly

I stand before this gift of time
Unshackled, bare, and bold
And I expose my vulnerability
Its beauty to behold

My journey is not over yet
But never do I fear
For, I have the hope, the will, the strength
To embrace another year!

 

 

 

About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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29 Responses to The Grace of Another Year

  1. She nelson says:

    This is so amazing, you truly have such a gift. Thank you for sharing, so touching and true

  2. Valerie Heesen says:

    Stacey, you are a wonder and an inspiration!

  3. Judy says:

    This is so powerful, Stacey! I haven’t gone through cancer and my admiration for your struggles is unending. You’ve taken such a horror and turned your life into a temple. How beautiful! I was even tear at your choice of words; there is so much inspiration in your poem. I wish every person suffering with cancer could read what you wrote!

    • inmycorner says:

      Do you really think so, Judy? I am not so sure that there are many other choices other than – to stand up and live. Your support and encouragement continue to buoy me to write more. This poem was actually written to help give direction to a friend of mine who is doing a calendar of cancer survivors. She Didn’t know what direction to take. It just seemed to me that “time” was the perfect link between cancer and a calendar. Thank you for being my hero, Judy.

  4. Embrace it! ❤ Love it! Live it! You are inspiration Stacey.

  5. ivor20 says:

    A very touching poem, and your positive outlook is truly inspirational.

  6. joyroses13 says:

    So beautiful!! Thanks for sharing and keep up the wonderful spirit!

  7. oneta hayes says:

    Outstanding! Have a great year, my dear. I’m sure you will appreciate the gift that every moment gives to you.

  8. Sadje says:

    Really amazing. So beautiful and positive. Thanks for sharing

  9. Gallivanta says:

    I am glad you are here to embrace another year. 🙂

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