In The Whispers of the Wind

(Thanks for the inspiration, Colleen Brown (https://bikecolleenbrown.wordpress.com/2018/07/09/i-listen-for-the-whisper/)

If I sit still enough
If I sit long enough and
If I am quiet enough –
I hear the voices…

They are whispers of the past.  They are promises of today and dreams for the future.

In the calm. In the quiet.  In the moment.  I rest my mind to focus on the here and now.

The doctor speaks.  Her words are unclear.  My immediate future is about to set its course through her words, “You are good for another three weeks, Stacey”, or “You need further treatment”.

My mind races.  My nerves fray.  I wait.  One more hour.  For the verdict on my immediate future.

It never changes.  I’m always walking on eggshells.  What will my blood work reveal?  Will I be able to manage?

The wind sends whispers.
I need to listen.
Feel them on my face.
Inhale the ethereal message.

Have hope.  Have courage.  All in due time, Stacey, all in due time.

So

I sit still
I prepare
I wait
And listen for the message.

About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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11 Responses to In The Whispers of the Wind

  1. This is beautiful Stacey…I understand the depth of this.
    (and thank you for the shout out).

  2. Judy says:

    I’m on eggshells! I am praying you get an excellent report, Stacey. It is challenging to deal with this constant worry – I am amazed how you have found so many beautiful ways to stay calm. Yes, the whispers of the wind can be very profound.

    • inmycorner says:

      All’s well, Judy, thank you. The winds of change were not blowing on this day – I am holding my good health. Thank God. Inspired, though, by those soccer players who survived 11 days in a black cave! Hurrah that they have been retrieved!

  3. Gallivanta says:

    Wretched eggshells. 😦 May the whispers be kind.

  4. as usual, beautifully written. I think you are ready to write your book…

  5. karen markovic says:

    Beautifully written…thinking of you! Enjoy your summer!

    • inmycorner says:

      Thank you, Karen! nice to hear from you – and trusting that your summer is going well for you? Sending rays of sunshine your way (or rain – which may be the new sunshine this year)

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