“You are stronger than you think.”
These are the words I read in a post this morning. I remember how I used to be able to push myself harder to achieve more. I remember doing sit-ups and push-ups and step-ups and more. And when I thought I could do no more, Vandie would encourage me with the words, “you are strong”, or even, “you can do another 8, right?”.
And I was strong. And I did another 8 more.
Yet, today, the phrase, “You are stronger than you think” has taken on an entirely different meaning for me today. I know I am stronger – but it is not in a way I can predict or expect. Endurance is not about another “8 more”. Strength comes in so many different packages and they change day by day.
Today – I need strength to get out of bed.
Today – I need strength to face taking my son, Ben, back to school and trusting that he will be okay until I see him again.
Today – I need strength to trust that my daughter, Katya, is safe as she travels in a foreign country far, far away from home.
I need strength to take my chemo pills. They are saving my life – but holy smokes, I gag every time I take them.
Today – I need strength to think positively about life. I need to see the blessings I have. I will actively encourage myself to move forward – to engage in the day – to … simply get out of bed.
I AM stronger than I think. I WILL accomplish these goals. Of this, I am certain.
My paradigm has shifted.