High Anxiety

I ride the wave, it peaks at dawn

Shortness of breath, our swords are drawn

Will it be me?  Will it be you?

Are you my friend – is what they say true?

The hour strikes, the time has come

We test each other – it has begun

I am so thankful, there is no doubt

A test of faith with no way out

I taste, I measure, I swallow, I wait

These six big pills will seal my fate

I ride the wave the storm brought in

It is not easy and I MUST win

Not just for me, not just for you

But for us all and the next ones too

How do I feel, how do I live?

I balance carefully so that I give..

My life a chance –

My life a hope –

My self a dream –

I won’t just cope..

I want to dance and sing and fly

I want to dig and plant and try –

To do more today than simply ride

This wave of anxiety, this cancer tide

In my corner I will not stay

For I refuse to live this way –

I ride the wave, it crests and falls

But – what a ride it is!