Monthly Archives: October 2016

Not Myself Today

I’m just not myself today. Not sure who I am – but this is not who I want to be. I want to “do”. Instead I sit. I want to be productive. Instead I wait. I want to laugh and … Continue reading

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I am Woman, Hear me Roar

It was more than weird to be able to return to “who I was” 34 years ago.  In fact, it was a bit daunting.  Who wants to see themselves as the “vulnerable” one, the one who has still so many … Continue reading

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When Right to Life Meets Funding

I thought nothing of it when I opened a piece of mail yesterday from Astrazeneca, the pharmaceutical company that developed the new medication I just began taking to control my ovarian cancer.  As per usual, I skipped the introduction and … Continue reading

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A True Malloff Woman

I wasn’t afraid of what I would see.  I had been to nursing homes/ long-term care homes/lodges before.  I had seen life as it was being gently drawn from the body and life as it had been “osmosed” per se. … Continue reading

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The Frost is on the Pumpkin

As James Taylor so eloquently sang, “well, the frost is on the pumpkin and the hay is in the barn..” I woke up this morning to frost on the roof.  Beautiful!  Simply beautiful.  A sign of cooler weather and crisp … Continue reading

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I could have danced all night

“I could have danced all night, I could have danced all night and still have begged for more. I could have spread my wings and done a thousand things, I’ve never done before.” – My Fair Lady Oh, those lyrics. … Continue reading

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Let’s try this again, shall we?

“Well, Stacey”, said my oncologist yesterday, “I called the big kahunas in Toronto and they had never heard of this reaction.” She was, of course, referring to my rather abrupt and notable allergic reaction I think I had on Sunday … Continue reading

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Right Now

It would seem I walk on broken glass.  I must trod gingerly along the path so to not make any assumptions about the future.  What I think will happen and what does happen are more oft’ than not … very … Continue reading

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Back to the Drawing Board

“Thanks for helping me paint, Mom”, said my daughter to me in a truly surprised and grateful voice. “Anything for my daughter”, I replied as I scratched my head. Man.  It was  itchy.  “It must be the new growth”, I … Continue reading

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High Anxiety

I ride the wave, it peaks at dawn Shortness of breath, our swords are drawn Will it be me?  Will it be you? Are you my friend – is what they say true? The hour strikes, the time has come … Continue reading

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