How is it that the message that we sometimes need the most comes to us through the most unexpected ways?
I have been helping a friend’s daughter with an essay about “Life of Pi”. I had watched the movie several years ago, but had not ever given it it’s proper dues. I liked it, but did not really ever understand the depth that the author had offered. Maybe it was the time of night I watched the movie, or maybe I was simply not able to review the script line by line as I could the book? I don’t know. I do know, however, that after having read the book and been forced to look at the themes more carefully, I have a better appreciation for my own life.
“Joy comes through suffering.”
Seriously. To be able to experience great joy – one must first endure great suffering. It is the appreciation of the hunger that gives such satisfaction for the food. I don’t enjoy food unless I hunger first. It is the “wanting” that makes me appreciate. Otherwise, I can take things for granted and not give them a second thought. I think that may be the “entitlement” attitude.
It has been a rough week. I wonder if it is because the end of my chemo is near … or so I hope. I worry that I will need more chemo should the cancer still not be gone. I need to get into remission. Then, I worry that the new drug I am to take to prolong remission will have multiple side-effects and I’ll not tolerate it well. These are valid concerns. It is tough to not spend time thinking about these things. I find I spend too much time and effort thinking about these things – when I ought to be living. Following my logic, however, without worry there can be no appreciation for calm. It is the heat that makes me like the cold so much and the cold that makes me like the heat.
I forget how much pain I was in two years ago. It was the pain that made me appreciate feeling well. It’s just tough to endure the bad while one is going through it – to appreciate the good.
Happiness can only come after sacrifice. This summer has been one of sacrifice for me. Here’s to a wickedly awesome fall.