“Have you seen it, yet?” inquired Dr. Mason.
“No. Should I?” I responded.
“Well, it is rather interesting. It’s about 2 cm and just below the surface of the skin.”
“Can you just cut it right out?” I asked, hoping he’d say sure!
“No. We can’t do that.”
One needle poke later and three snip, snips later, the biopsy was complete. It was quite painless, actually. I was relieved. My liver biopsy had not been a cake walk. It was deep and the freezing didn’t seem to take. Add on the fact that it was difficult to breathe, and you have a miserable experience. A biopsy on my lymph node was not a problem at all.
I think it was the comment about the tumor size that made me breathe a sigh of relief. I had to shrink my other liver tumors last time to 4 cm before even considering the possibility of surgery. This tumor – was only 2 cm. A cake walk. I think this today was the first time I had actually believed I was going to be okay, that the tumor would shrink to nothing. It seemed possible.
One wonders, at this point, why one is so fortunate? At least – to date. I have good health other than the fact that I am diseased. I have hope that new medication may prolong my periods of remission. I take no medication for heart, liver, kidney, or breathing. I don’t think the nurses quite believe me when I say to them that I have had a lot of pieces cut out of me. I listed them off today and it seemed to draw a bit of a crowd. Then, the comment, “you look great”. I liked that – whether it was the truth or not – didn’t matter. Hearing a nurse tell you how well you look makes a difference.
My friend Vandie took me today. She too made friends with the nurses and joked around. She told them about her trip to Gross Mountain – and how I was supposed to have gone with her. Again – they were impressed. Again – it felt good to impress the nurses.
I am mid-way between chemos one and two right now. I am enjoying every day. I feel wonderful. I am blessed. I worked hard this past week and it felt good.
I am tired tonight. Didn’t sleep well last night worrying about the biopsy. No matter how much I try to pretend it was nothing – my body tells me otherwise.
So – I go to bed, having been there, done it, and having seen it. Another hurdle behind me.
Yes. another hurdle behind you. You’ve overcome so many, but I imagine each one is still exhausting, including the worry. My best to you.
May you sleep well and peacefully and awake refreshed…
Me too – it’ll happen soon enough, no doubt. I was too excited to sleep when I was renovating – now I think I need a new project.
I look forward to your days Stacey. On what you do. What you see. What you conquer. 🙂
So glad to hear that, Colleen. I ‘m hoping to be able to offer you many more of them. grin.
Wonderful! I’m waiting to hear about them!
Hope you slept well and are feeling refreshed today. 🙂
Full of piss and vinegar… so to speak. grin.
ha! That’s a good one.
Glad the biopsy wasn’t painful – you have gone through so much. Your powerful and positive attitude must be helping you sail through this. Hoping for the best outcome possible. I’m definitely “in your corner!”
thanks, Judy… oh, I hope that is something that I can control with attitude. Glad to have you here with me, my friend.
I’m glad, too. I thought of you today – I follow another blog by a cancer patient and I found his post very inspiring. I want to share it with you: https://fonzandcancer.wordpress.com/2016/01/07/your-past-does-not-define-you-3/
Not that you aren’t positive, but his words were helpful for me in other areas of my life.
Wonderful blog — read it — thanks, Judy for sharing. Great perspectives on life.
well written
Well, thank-you so much.
Hurdles are not an easy event, but so happy that you had a relatively easy stride over this one. Take a few resting steps and you’ll be able to take whatever hurdles might present themselves in the future.
I am so grateful. Last month doctor said no more treatments. Prostate cancer cured.
Wha????? Wow!!!!! Oh, Carl – I am SOOOO happy for you. Congratulations. Such great news — I hope you are celebrating!!!!!
Regular screening required. Lucky break. Father diagnosed same 40 years ago. He’s 92 now.
Hi my friend Judy said you may find our support group helpful. Put in the search box.
Cancer stories (people supporting people through exsperience)
I am Mark and would be delighted to be of some help to you in your journey.
Wonderful. I will certainly take a peek as it is always nice to get support. Thanks for messaging me.