The days when I wonder what my purpose is

Are the days when I know I’m alive

It is cancer’s ghost which makes me see

My reality with wide-opened eyes


Awakened from my slumber deep

I question every thing I am

Every task which I have been sent to do

Since this hideous disease began


Both a blessing and a curse it is

Machiavellian is the cloth

It wraps itself and clings to me

Yet it be such an invisible swath


My garment worn mere months ago

Has all but disappeared

I wear its memory, just the same

Until my first cancer-free year


The tears, the smiles, the hopes and fears

Remind me where I’ve been

And shared with family and friends alike

Oh, the places I have seen


The depth of life I’ve sunk profoundly

Into questioning

What remains my purpose here on Earth?

Who is editing?


Indeed, the days, I wonder why

I live, I love, I pray?

It cancer’s cloth that reminds me to –

Make the most of every day.


About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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2 Responses to Purpose

  1. April says:

    I hope you have a wonderful day!

  2. Gwen says:

    Wow, goosebumps on my arms. Beautifully written again. Thanks for reminding all of us to make the most of each day we are given.

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