It’s a do-nothing kind of day

“Maybe I should do laundry?”

Nah —

“Maybe I should make some soup?”

Nah —

“How about going for a walk?”

Been there – did it – thank goodness – first thing this morning.

“Why no energy?”

I don’t know.  Could it be a mental hang-over from the emotional roller-coaster of this past week?

“Don’t waste the day, Stacey!”

I’m trying to beat the next level on Candy Crush!  How can that be wasteful?

“Get up and get going!”

Nah— I’m tired.

“You like cooking!”

Not today.  I’m just tired.  I get up.  I go back to bed.  I get up again.  Nothing interests me.  I go back to bed.

“You are getting old!”

Yup.  But not today – I don’t have the energy to grow old.

“Are you upset?”

Nope.  But if you pushed it – I’d cry. It’s just that kind of day.  It’s a lazy day.  It’s a dull day.  Unless your son is getting married, it’s a dull day.  But I don’t mind a dull day – every once in a while.  I need some down time.  I was busy this week.  A fire, a movie, some popcorn maybe?

“Get outside.”

Get out of my head!  Leave me alone.  I just want to “be” today.  Totally selfish.  Totally quiet.  Ever get that way?

“Yeah – I do.”

So – since it is a do nothing kind of day — I think I’ll do just that.

For today – maybe for just now.

About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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5 Responses to It’s a do-nothing kind of day

  1. Yup it is that kind of day here too!

  2. pixieannie says:

    Bless you, Stacey. We all have those days, do not feel alone in your ‘nothingness.’ I have one most weeks and despite having lots to do and much that makes me happy, I cannot bring myself to do anything. It’s a way of shutting down and preparing for the winter months and listening to my body. How are your Vitamin D levels? I have to take supplements as mine are always far too low. Did you rest well?

  3. Gwen K says:

    Hoping for a do-nothing half day tomorrow after doing the laundry – haha.

  4. That’s exactly how I feel today. I was thinking it’s depression, but pondering that doesn’t help. 🙂

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