That was then – this is now

Let me

Juxtapose

Yesterday with today

Uncertainty – stillness

Fear – inner calm

Losing my hair – growing my hair

Ignorance – wisdom

Blind faith – insightful faith

Loss – Gain

Conflict – Inner peace

Seclusion – Community

Cancer – Remission

Last year – on this day, at the beginning of my battle with stage 4 ovarian cancer, I wrote the following:

“I want to live.  I am not ready to go.  I will think positively.  I love life.  I will set goals.  I will use others’ strength.  I will learn new recipes.  I will love my children.  I will love my husband and appreciate our relationship.  I will read happy things.  I will laugh.  I will breath.  I will enjoy.  I will pray.  I will fight! I am strong.  I am healthy.  I am determined.  I am courageous. I will deal with my hair.  I will return to teaching and make a difference.  I want to live deeply.” (from Juxtapositions)

One year later – it seems I did all of those things.  At least – I hope I did.  I’ve never stopped wanting to do all of those things.

Prayed to God for my life – Thanking God for my life.

Juxtapositions

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About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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4 Responses to That was then – this is now

  1. Gallivanta says:

    Isn’t it wonderful that you have that record, that you determined to write your story as you lived it?

  2. Mary Kendall says:

    I think we all thank God for your life. ❤

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