Who am I?

I am not cancer.

I am not a threat.

I am not contagious, judgmental, or rude.

I am not selfish.

I am not cruel.

I am not self-centered.

I am neither fatalistic, nor pessimistic.

I am not naive.

What I am, though, is human.

I am me – a person first.

I am a person who lives with cancer.

That makes me strong, resilient, and determined.

I have to be.

I am thoughtful, loyal, and caring.

I am a friend.

I welcome friends with open arms.

I share my thoughts and will call it as I see it – unless I bite my tongue.

I am a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen to you, and a heart to feel your pain.

Cancer has not changed me.  I have changed cancer. It no longer owns me no matter how hard it tries.  It will not own me nor ruin my life.

I do not live alone.  I do not confide in myself alone.  I do not cry alone.

I do live in community, I confide in family and friends who care, I cry on their shoulders.

I will not change.

I cannot change.

I am who I was raised to be.

I will always – always – always – try.  I will try to be better.  I will try to be helpful.  I will try to be kinder, more gentle, more thoughtful.

I am a friend.

I am a mother.

I am a wife.

I am someone on whom you can depend.

I was raised that way.  Cancer will not change that.

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About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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11 Responses to Who am I?

  1. pixieannie says:

    Very moving. Beautfiul. Love your spirit.

  2. pepe says:

    Love your undying spirit and your positive words especially this line ” I have changed cancer. It no longer owns me no matter how hard it tries.” You are a fighter Stacey and continue to inspire me 🙂

  3. Empowering! YOU decide who and what you are. 🙂

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