Just Around the Corner

I walk without trepidation.

I am flanked on either side by bull-rushes that have shot up tall over the railings during the summer.  They are tired – it’s been a long season.

What lays on the other side of those rushes – who knows?  I believe, though, in the harmony of the moment.  It whispers a promise to me – of serenity, tranquility, and goodness.  I listen carefully to capture every word – every second – every breath.

Fall is in the air.  It invites me to inhale.  It intoxicates me, paralyzes me, and inspires my imagination.  I will soon walk on freshly fallen snow.  I will soon hear the crunch beneath me.  I am invited to dream of the future.  I imagine a week, a month, a year into the future.  I am bold – driven by the boldness of the moment.

Ahead, the path is clear.  It is bright.  If I continue I will walk into the sun and feel the warmth.  I will be alive and my skin will warm.  Just past the shadow, I will emerge into the light, lift up, and re-charge.

Just around the corner the scenery will reveal itself to me.  I will be enlightened – questions answered.

I pause.  Breathe.  Exhale and hold my breathe from coming back in.  Hold, hold… hold.  There is a moment when life stops – in between breaths – when you realize you are about to become anew.  The body is waiting – in the shadows – for the breath that lies just around the corner.

About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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6 Responses to Just Around the Corner

  1. pixieannie says:

    That brought a tear to my eye….probably because I was walking with you. Admittedly, I’m actually sat at my kitchen table, reading about vices for my workbench and distracting myself every now and then for a fill of wonderfully written, evocative, life affirming stories and tales, such as yours. Thank you again for bringing a sense of lightness to my day.

    • inmycorner says:

      THank-you for those wonderfully supportive words! Okay – seriously interested in why you would be reading about vices — what are you building???

      • pixieannie says:

        I’m hoping to build a workbench but until I have drawn up plans to renovate the current outbuildings, I’ll have to settle for simply replacing the top on the old bench. I wasn’t aware that there were so many vices and some of the wooden ones are simply beautiful in their own right.

      • inmycorner says:

        Ha – well that makes two of us (Not knowing about the variety of vices!!!) grin. Good for you – how unique!

  2. Maureen says:

    I am so glad you are still writing

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