Monthly Archives: August 2015

I Wish

I wish that sometimes I just might Live life less deeply and basque in delight To see the world and not dig in To think things through – no need to win I wish for light, for wisps of air … Continue reading

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The Window

I walk past his room and peek in.   It is empty.  There is very little evidence that Ben was even there – other than the bed sheets are not as straight as they ought to be and the odd … Continue reading

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Miss him already

Heading back home after spending a few days trying to get my eldest son, Ben, settled for another year of school is way more emotional than I had expected.  Yes – I’ll admit I am quick to tear – but … Continue reading

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My Canada

My Canada is a land of freedom – but I must stand on guard that it remains that way. My Canada is a land of promise, of hope – but I must not simply expect that to happen. It is … Continue reading

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Hair Today

It swirls around and wraps my head It should go this way – but goes that way instead The colour, it seems, is all black and white The shade of my youth has given up her fight So simple to … Continue reading

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Unsure

I’m not sure what to write.  I’ve been so active physically lately that my mind has been sadly neglected. Not sure whether to write in first, second, or third person. Not sure to write about the past, present, or future. … Continue reading

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I love it!

It’s raining – and I love it. I’m resting – and I love it. It’s quiet – and I love it.  I’d love it even it were noisy! I’m losing Candy Crush – and that’s okay (I don’t love it, … Continue reading

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Lost and ground(ed)

The firewall is down.  I am exposed.  Today, I meet with the doctor for my 3 – month follow up.   And I feel like I am walking on broken glass. I wonder if that’s a bad thing?  It is … Continue reading

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The Firewall

This summer, cancer walked behind me.  Today – it walks beside me.  I don’t want it to walk in front of me ever again.  And so – I put up a firewall between cancer and I.  That way, I can … Continue reading

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I forgive you, Mom

“I will never leave you, Mom.” “I know, Vandie.  You never have.” It wasn’t long after that exchange of promise and appreciation that my friend, Vandie’s mom, passed away. Funny how no matter how much you do – how much … Continue reading

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