It was written in the clouds.

It was in the garden today, when I realized what it must feel to be “old” all of a sudden.

I realized I could not do what I once had been able to do – I didn’t have the energy.

I had to take things slowly while weeding.

I had to narrow my effort to a very small spot.  Looking at the entire garden was daunting.

Oh, to have energy once again.

I pulled out a few weeds and then collapsed backwards onto the grass.  I saw the clouds as I had seen them as a child – big, puffy.  I wondered if I could see images in them?  They meandered across the sky slowly.  I was temporarily caught between old age and childhood.  It was an odd place to be.

It was there – in the garden – I realized that I had been given this moment as a gift.  Once again, I remembered that I hadn’t thought this moment would be possible, only months ago.  The plants were alive – and so was I.

I pulled a few weeks once again.  And I reclined in the grass once again too.

I had hope.  One day – unlike old age – I would be stronger.  Maybe, just maybe I would regain my strength.

It was written in the clouds.

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About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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16 Responses to It was written in the clouds.

  1. Gallivanta says:

    Enjoy the clouds! 🙂 Old is when you collapse backwards and can’t get up again without assistance. That’s my predicament. 😉

  2. Tom Graves says:

    “The heavens declare the Glory of God…” Psalm 19:1 (Today’s Psalm, May 19th)

  3. Someone wanted you to look at those clouds. 🙂 That’s all it was. 🙂 Today you have the time to do so. So you did. Perfect.

  4. kiwiskan says:

    Some of that childlike joy seems to return as you get older – and I know that tired feeling!

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