And touch you toes….
“Oh no, I won’t – cuz I can’t!” I thought this morning during Vandie’s pilates class.
But Vandie does not give up that easily. She kept insisting that I try. My mind kept insisting that I try. So I kept trying. And eventually – I “almost” did it.
“Okay, now roll over backwards”, she then proceeded to instruct Tellie and I.
“Oh no, I won’t – cuz I can’t!” I thought to myself.
Still, Vandie did not give up that easily. She insisted I try – and so did I. Eventually my body folded in two. Not completely, but it was a start.
“Now, roll yourself up and balance on your butt bones.” she instructed.
“Oh no – I won’t – cuz I can’t” I thought to myself once more.
But I tried. Nothing. I tried again. I couldn’t even move. “Do what you can.” instructed Vandie.
I thought about it again. I tried. Voila. I did it!
And this is how my fitness class with Vandie progressed today.
I learned a lot today. I learned about my body, my strength, and how chemo has affected my muscles and brain. I learned that:
– if I think about a move long enough, the message will get through my brain and into my body
– my muscles have become very rigid and I need to stretch them.
– I am progressing slowly but surely
– fitness is essential to heal
– Vandie is patient, caring, and wise. (Okay – I already knew that!)
I don’t know how I would have learned these lessons if I had not pushed myself back into fitness. I am so very grateful that I have this opportunity to regain my physical fitness. What a mess I would have been in if I had not tried. And I didn’t even know it. Truely, one never knows what one is capable of if limits are not pushed and opportunities are not taken.
I may not be able to touch my toes yet – but I know I can stretch my limits!