Do you want the truth or do you want what I think you want to hear?
Do you have time for the answer?
Do you want to feel like you have helped me or that you care?
I want you to have a good day and so – I’ll lie.
I want you to know that I know you care. Thanks for asking. I appreciate the question.
I want you to get on with your day – so I”ll be quick about it.
How do I feel?
I feel like I’ve been poisoned. That’s the truth.
My bones ache – but they are not bad. My head is cloudy – but not bad.
There are days when I am seriously depressed – but that lifts.
There are days when I am so tired I can hardly get out of bed – but I do.
My skin is dry – but lotion helps.
My teeth sometimes aches – but that seems to be temporary.
My balance is off – but I can hold on.
I want to cry – but if I laugh I don’t cry. I am bored – but I find things to do.
I hate being bald – but I have a wig to wear.
I am afraid of the needles and the drugs – but they save my life.
I want to get back to work and be productive – but I know I am not able yet.
So, how am I feeling? My answer depends on how much time you have for me and how much you really care about that answer. And it changes from day to day – sometimes minute to minute.
The one thing, however, that remains consistent is that I am grateful to be alive.
I will always try to count my blessings over my short-givings. I will always try to give people the benefit of the doubt. I will always try to look for the beauty in nature and see the positives rather than dwell on the negatives.
Life is to short to carry grudges or to count on my hand the ways people have done me wrong. One good thing must outweigh one bad – they are not equal. If you offend me – I will try to turn the other cheek.
I feel fantastic, today! Life is good and the sun is shining. I thank God for this day.
Thanks for asking.