Monthly Archives: April 2015

Round and round

“Mom, I don’t know what to do with myself.  I want to do – but I don’t have the energy.” “Just rest, Stacey.  Read a book.” “I don’t really feel like reading a book – I’d rather be in my … Continue reading

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Step – in Time

I didn’t trust that I got the time right.  I don’t trust my memory to most things these days.  When I walked in Vandie’s front door, however, and heard the fitness music playing I breathed a sigh of relief.  I … Continue reading

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God’s Symphony

This morning, I had front row seats to God’s Symphony.   It was a symphony of sight and sound that was being performed for just me. The curtain rose slowly to reveal the splendor of the orchestral cacophony.  The movement began … Continue reading

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Get up!!!!

They arrived, in the snow, yesterday afternoon.  The emotions were palpable, but no one came right out with it.  I didn’t want to cry and I’m pretty sure they didn’t either.  We hugged – good, tight hugs – and then … Continue reading

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Three Gratitudes

What does it take to be happy? There was a report on the news last night that actually answered that question.  It came as no surprise, though, to discover the suggestions:  be grateful, offer praise, and reflect. I have, throughout … Continue reading

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It’s the little things…

It’s the little things in life that seem to matter the most when the chips are down.  These little things are the things I miss most about my Mom. I miss her smile, her laugh.  I remember Mom always being … Continue reading

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Bon appetit!

I did it!  I got out of bed and went downstairs this morning!  Of course, I’m not sure I could have done it without Kevin and his invitation to our morning coffee. It has been a very long three days … Continue reading

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I am alive

Today I just don’t want to think Minute by minute I want to breathe Hear the wind Feel the sun Today I am tired I need to rest Need to just “be” Today There are no words There is only … Continue reading

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Through the Lens of a Chemo Haze

A haze clouds my thinking today.  Argh!  It’s frustrating! I’m agitated, frustrated. Irritable. I know it will pass. My mind is not connecting with my body today.  There seems to be a disparity between them.  I am disconnected.  I am … Continue reading

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It takes a community to cure cancer

Of course – before we rang the bell – I had to say a few words to the people who have supported my family and I throughout this journey!  You know me.  It was a beautiful day – and a … Continue reading

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