Through my window..

I rest.  I lay still.  And through my bedroom window –  I see.

My body is exhausted, but my mind has been liberated.

What chains and shackles bind us to the physical dimensions of what we see and what we hear?

What is it that releases us from the constrains of our body – to enable us to soar above, to see above, to hear above?

I exhale and am at peace  – the peace of what is now.  Not what is tomorrow – tomorrow is anew and I am not ready for it.

Look, look, look!  What do I really see?  To see beyond the lens is to live.  It is the moment when mind, soul, imagination meld and form a new reality:  life.  I am lifted.  I am numb with delight and content with the blue – blue of the sky I see just beyond the curtain which frames my view.  I can see.  I can almost feel the sky.  I am numb with the delight of calm, peace, serenity.

A new day – now.  It is here and present.  If tomorrow never came I would still have today – this moment – this sight – this light.

A breath.  A wisp.  A gift.  No promises… not today.  I don’t need them.

Look, look, look!  My eyes are opened – there is no pain through which I need to squint to see.  There is no war raging on inside of me.  There are no constraints – I look freely.

My body exhausted, my mind liberated.  Today.  Another breath to cleanse my view – and once again, I see.

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About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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6 Responses to Through my window..

  1. Gwen K says:

    Sounds like you are successfully through Day 5.

  2. “I am numb with the delight of calm, peace, serenity.” Incredible. 🙂

  3. Alan Baglien says:

    keep on keeping on!

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