Really, I’m fine.

I’m fine.  Really.  Who wants to hear the bad stuff, anyhow?

How long can one complain before the complaints fall on deaf ears?

Still, I stand – I hurt.  I sit – I hurt.  I walk.

I’m fine.  Really.  I have no right to complain.  I have been given a new license on life.

Too cold to walk this morning.  Too cold to get out of bed.

How many more days until the winter thaws into spring?

Still, I stand – I hurt.  I sit – I hurt.

I’m fine.  Really.  I have no right to complain.   I have a roof over my head and warm blankets at night.

Too tired to clean.  Too tired to play.

How many more days until I regain my energy?

Still, I walk – I hurt.  I laugh – I hurt.

I’m fine.  Really.  I have no right to complain.  I have a family and we support one another through thick and thin.

Too sad to cry.  Too happy to smile.

How long until my emotions settle back to normal?

I cry – it hurts.  I sigh – it hurts.

I’m fine.  Really.  I have no right to complain.  I have clean water, food, and plenty of space.

To sleep.  To dream.  To celebrate.  I imagine their return.

At the tip of the iceburg –  I’m fine.   Really.

I have no right to complain.

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About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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6 Responses to Really, I’m fine.

  1. Gwen K says:

    Even without major surgery there are many of us who feel like that on some mornings. This extreme February sure isn’t helping us. Hang in there, hopefully that groundhog knew what he was talking about at the beginning of the month.

  2. kiwiskan says:

    You have every right… And hang in – the spring and the victory are in sight.

  3. Look at that smile! 🙂 And go ahead and complain!!!!! You can complain all you want. As long as there are smiles. And forging on!!!! 😉

  4. pepe says:

    even though we have everything what we need, we do complain sometimes. So you can complain also since after we all are human 🙂

  5. pepe says:

    and love the lovely picture on your featured image ❤

  6. Gallivanta says:

    I am with Maureen on this … you have every right to complain, and groan.

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