Monthly Archives: February 2015

Cabin Fever

Another frigid morning Oh, when will this fever end? Frosted windows obscure my view, Spring, Mother Nature, please do send! Four walls collapse around me I lay stiff as fallen snow I need some doors to open wide To give … Continue reading

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Don’t Look Back

It was there in her vision, yet so far still in the distance.  How many steps would it take to get there?  How much power for each stride? She needed to pace herself.  This she knew.  Yet, what pace? There … Continue reading

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The Beginning of the End

I am anxious to start so that it can end. As much as I want the chemo – I equally don’t want chemo. It is a necessary evil. Three more needles – three more three weeks. I think I can. … Continue reading

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Really, I’m fine.

I’m fine.  Really.  Who wants to hear the bad stuff, anyhow? How long can one complain before the complaints fall on deaf ears? Still, I stand – I hurt.  I sit – I hurt.  I walk. I’m fine.  Really.  I … Continue reading

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The Moving Finger writes..

The Moving Finger wrote: “Live on”. And what words can I write to describe what it feels like to be granted the potential for an old age?  What words can I write to express the relief I feel, yet, at … Continue reading

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Winter Promises

Frozen All is still But the the biting wind Wind Forces itself at my window Etching history into the panes Panes Opaque under protest Against the prolonged darkness of the day Day Struggles to break Loses at hide and seek … Continue reading

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Baby Steps

One step forward and two steps back It’s the physical tenacity that I lack Sleep, sleep, and ever more sleep My anesthetic slumber, I want no more to keep One step forward and two steps back Drawn to tear and … Continue reading

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On learning my limit and playing within it…

Oh boy. I did too much. What the heck?! How was I to know?  One day you wake up and are fully functioning and the next you are in a hospital bed – not able to sit up. I am … Continue reading

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It’s in the jeans…

I am out of routine.  There is no doubt about it.  This physical set-back is messing with me! I am too nervous to walk, too tired to cook, too drugged to drive (I think), and too brain-dead to learn something … Continue reading

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Cast Away

Yea organs – yea organs, yet where can ye be? The stitches lay pathways down which you were set free Me body lays barren like a desert’s fine sand Pining for pieces that once were so grand Cast away to … Continue reading

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