A new day has dawned

It’s a funny thing to be finally given a ticket to better health.  It’s almost scary.  I feel like I have become much better at living deeply and am terrified that life will return to its normal busy, frenetic pace.  I always thought I would be trying to plan the next step while walking in the shadow of cancer, but after yesterday’s appointment, I think I feel the sun on my face once more.

I can now think about going on our annual trip to Myrtle Beach.

I can attend my son’s spring concert.

I will be able to go shopping in public places with “people” around.

How strange that there may not be as many “wait and sees”.  How wonderful.  How truly scary to be coming back into the world again.

Driving down to Princess Margaret Hospital in Toronto yesterday, I was really of the belief that I was going to have to accept a life with cancer – and staving off its growth with regular chemo maintenance.  Instead, I was given a surgery date.  “I have a spot open on February 4th, Stacey, if you are interested?” asked Dr. Bernardini.  I think my mouth may have gaped open as the follow-up comment from the doctor was, “Are you okay with that?”.

I had to explain I was more in shock than anything else, having prepared myself for the worst and not expecting to hear the best.  “Of course I will take that date!”  I affirmed.  And that was that.  The procedure was explained to me in detail – complete with stats for clotting, pneumonia, and transfusions.

“But you are healthy  – other than cancer.  You aren’t on any medications.  You are young.  You are fit.  You are a good candidate. ”

“What about the liver?”  Kevin inquired.  “How difficult is that going to be?”

“It’s a cake walk.  The chemo did a good job in shrinking the tumors and I should be able to remove them all.”

Oh, my God!  I thought I could kiss that man right there and then!  A cake-walk?!  I was thinking liver transplant, lobectomy (or whatever that is called), or major organ slicing and dicing.  Nope.  “Now, there could be more than what appeared on the CT – you never know for sure until we open you up – but it is looking to be quite easy.  The liver is our area of expertise.  There are risks, of course, but you are pretty straight forward.”

After one more internal exam (yuck!), I was sat to sign my name to agree to surgery.  “You may as well get all the pre-surgery preps done now so you don’t have to come back until the 4th, Stacey”, explained the nurse.  “You can do your bloodwork, your chest X-ray, and your ECG before you go home”.

It was nearly 6:00 when Kevin and I returned to the car to drive home.  I think we were both a little stunned.  It was a pretty quiet car ride home – there was an air of content.  It was not the path neither of us had anticipated.  We were exhausted mentally and exuberant all at once.

“Look, Stacey”, exclaimed Kevin.  “It is nearly 6:00 and it is still not quite dark.”

It was like a new day had dawned – in the eve of our new lives.

About inmycorner

This blog began as an opportunity to tell my Dad's stories. I sat with him and the computer and together we told stories. It was a wonderful way to get to know Dad. He was 9. He and Mom had a wonderful life together and since she passed away a year and a half before him - Dad was ready to join her. I no longer tell his stories but have found stories of my own. The impetus to resume this blog was the discovery that I had stage 4 ovarian cancer. Since blogging had been so therapeutic for my dad and I to get through our grief, I felt maybe this would be a good outlet to process my situation. I also hoped it may serve as an outreach to anyone else who is facing this very ominous journey. So far, so good.
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30 Responses to A new day has dawned

  1. dawna says:

    Stacy and Kevin—what can we say but CONGRATULATIONS—-a wonderful day has dawned—may peace and tranquility follow you through your journey of your healthy new life
    Love to you both

  2. Nicole Dube says:

    Wonderful news! You are honestly such an amazing writer too! You are blessing others with your positive outlook! May God continue to strengthen you and your family!

    • inmycorner says:

      Nicole – thank-you so much! And, yes, this news is wonderful! I feel very much like my relationship with the readers and supporters is so symbiotic – I am empowered when people read and like my stories. I so much appreciate your prayers and wishes for strength!

  3. Terri Lynn says:

    so good to hear such uplifting news!!!!!

  4. Feb. 4th should be a good day as it is also my birthday! So glad they are getting down to business and operating quickly.
    Love and best wishes for the 4th,
    Martin & toni

    • inmycorner says:

      Hey – knew there was a reason for it being the 4th! I guess it really is a “cake-walk”, eh? Thanks, Martin. I am glad it is coming so quickly too! Lots of love back to you and hope your winter is going well in the south! Love, Stacey

  5. hopebringsstrength says:

    Hallelujah! The road to RECOVERY will be such a Glorious one! MUCH MUCH Love my friend!

  6. kiwiskan says:

    I am so happy for you Stacey! I have been praying for a good result, and that date is marked in my diary. Nice one!

    • inmycorner says:

      Oh, thank-you! Good to know that I am “in your diary!” I guess I may not be posting for a couple of days – just thought of that… I’ll have a lot of time to think about things while I am recovering in the hospital. Hmmm. Maybe I’ll bring my computer. So wonderful to have your support from such a long distance away!

  7. And the sunny day I’m sitting in suddenly became luminous. 🙂

  8. Tom Graves says:

    Great report!!!! Thank you Jesus for total healing and restoration in the coming days!!

  9. pepesapam says:

    yay 🙂 .!!! Stacey Congrats…what a relief and it is such a great news…since the day i have followed your blog, i really wanted you to be free from your cancer and be healthy again..and here i am smiling, after reading your post. it is such a great news to start my day..wishing you more good health and prayers all the way..!!

  10. Kathy says:

    I’m smiling !!!!

  11. Gallivanta says:

    How splendid, how very very splendid. Doing a happy dance for you!

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